Re-posted: Waiting for time.
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Sometimes you do not get the things you want, the way you want it to be, and at the time you want it to happen.
It is like how you get tired of watching the clouds go by and still sit at that very spot waiting. You know you sat at that spot on the garden bench for quite sometime, almost all your life. You could get the hang of it, the momentum of the long wait. Then an old man dressed simply would walk by and take that seat next to you. He would then ask in a gentle voice, almost a whisper, "Hello, what are you waiting for." You were taken aback because you had never seen anyone before. In this land filled with nothing but an empty garden bench and truckloads of white fluffy clouds, no one came by. So I sat and waited. He came by and talked to me, so i told him everything i could think of. He was a kind old man and was wise and honest. He seemed to know everything and he could do anything, so i began to ask for things. I wanted houses and beautiful meadows and all the lovely things i could think of. He gave them all to me. Soon my world was filled with golden trees which grew ruby fruits, jade grass blades and sapphire streams.
He sat on the same bench as he watched me discover all the beautiful things he had given to me. I realised that he began to grow even older but he still smiled as i walked towards all the new things.
But soon ruby fruits and diamond dew were not enough, i began asking for big houses, fast cars, all the richest and everything else. He gave them all to me.
The same thing happened, he watched me as i walk towards those things he had blessed me with, and he was delighted that i loved them, but he never ceased to age. His wrinkles began to crease even more as he grinned at me. It began to seep deep down into his skin.
I stayed in the mansion he gave me, i slept on the huge bed and had silk pillows and all but the old man continued to sit on that old and creaking bench. He never came in.
But i was asking for too much.
I realized that nothing could ever please me, so what was i chasing for. In that empty mansion, there was no one else and i could not understand why i asked for that. The bench we sat on began to grow rusty and soon the old man stood up and called me.
I walked out of my house politely and went towards him.
He told me that there is nothing that actually wanted for. All that i wanted were nothing at all, and he took them all back. Nothing but clouds were left.
He told me that all i have to do is sit and wait. As time passes, everything will be revealed and you will get everything you can ever want.
I sat with that old man everyday and waited as time passed, things came by and went away, but only the old man stayed.
Wait.